Diary of a Fitness Fiend

This year has already been quite a whirlwind. They say it helps to journal your thoughts when in tough times. All summer I have told myself I’m going to start blogging about my Drum corps summer tour with the Bluecoats. Obviously I have not! Let’s start with the hardest subject- on June 10,2010 my little brother shot and killed himself. There are no words to say about this or to comfort someone in this state. He left behind his 20 year old wife and 2.5 year old baby. The reality of the situation still hasn’t hit me and I still don’t know how to handle it. I haven’t had a full nights rest or a night without bad dreams since it happened. Since I’m tour it’s hard because I’m on the go all the time and have noone to connect with, which is making the recovery process excessively difficult. Sigh On another family note, I’m going to Six Flags with my “Dad” today in Ft. Edwards, NY. I haven’t seen him since my college graduation in 2007, and I’ve only seen him 3 times ever. I’m nervous about seeing him, as meeting your 26 year old daughter has to be nerve wracking and he’s not the most talkative when we have been together. Moving along, it’s been 5 weeks since I’ve worked out and I’m getting very soft. I’ve started to worry about losing all my hard work. I realize that worrying and working out right now are not going to help my health recover from overtraining or help my hormones regulate! Alright, I’m not much of a writer and I’m running out of fuel. Goodbye till next time!